Wow! Its been so long. I have missed so much posting new photos. Unfortunately my dear computer fell very ill and lost all ability to start up. It's been out of commission for almost two months. After much support and a lengthy hard drive and software transplant, my computer is back up online. A HUGE thanks goes out to my awesome and incredibly computer savy husband, Slawomir, for sticking in there and figuring the whole problem out. :) Baci amore mio! You and your support through it all helped me to stay relatively sane. Thanks for not letting me die with the computer :)
Although no photo processing was done during these several days, time was in no way wasted. I truly have come to believe that I needed this time to fully get a grasp of what I have decided to do with my life.
In early November I had decided to completely re-direct my life and start living more purposely. By this I mean that I no longer wanted to go from job to job looking for something to believe in. I could always find something to believe in, but I never felt a true sense of identity in the work. Instead I wanted identify my beliefs from the inside. I knew I could form a path of my own.
First, to set the path I had to reflect and face the thing I most feared, the thing I always ran away from. I run from it because I know it can hurt me the most. It can hurt me the most because I care for it the most. So, what is this thing?
Photography.
I have always loved to take photos, but was always deathly afraid of showing my work to the world. Photography was always something very personal to me. I felt my photos to be mine and mine alone. I never thought anyone could fully understand the message I was trying to communicate in my photos.
You know what, I was right. - Nothing can be understood fully by another, since they are not you. Instead of seeing this as a negative thing I began to understand the true beauty of photography. A photograph with great power to move is actually one that does the opposite than simply communicate my idea. It is a photograph that generates thousands upon thousands of ideas and emotions. It inspires. Thats way the saying goes "A picture is worth a thousand words."
So, my goal: -To create images that are worth a thousand words or more... preferably more :)
Okay so that's the goal, but how to go about achieving this goal. Well, these last couple of months have been dedicated to figure that out. No wasted time. Trust me.
Achieving anything of great value requires a lot of time, especially in the preparation phase.
Step #1: Believe it!
I had to come to believe with every fiber of my body that this was and is what I want to do
with my time.
Not an easy task my friends.
I discovered this very funny voice living inside me that always would pop out at some difficult times and say "But Margarita, photography? Really? Is there money in that? Can You really pull it off?" and so on the annoying voice went... over and over and over again. Menacing little voice.
No worries though. It started to disappear after the second month due to the appearance of new worries. Life, right?
These last couple of weeks I've been shooting, reading, organizing and basically clearing the space in my head to truly focus all further attempts on photography.
Wow, was it hard and by no means is the process over. I don't think it will ever be over.
This time without my computer has helped me tremendously. A computer is a very distracting thing. With so many photos to process, so many new ideas to research, so many people to communicate your ideas to. I think I definitely needed this alone time to better focus my wish to communicate primarily through my photography.
Much needed ground work has been set and fortified during this hard time.
I hope my following photo posts reflect this change. I am confident that they will to some degree.
Okay, I have rattled on for long enough today.
Please stay tuned for new photo postings and for over all changes within my blog. I have many ideas for this space and am determined to make miracles happen ;)
I must inform though that the changes will be coming little by little. This is one thing I have made a point to remember. "Rome was not built in a day." I don't want to burn myself out now. This firecraker intends on lighting up the sky for a while :)
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